Lost to do!

So much stuff to complete that I don't even know where to start. My home is a mess right now and I have friends and family coming to visit next week. So I have to get all my rooms smelling fresh and do a deep clean of the bathrooms. At least my guest bedroom and bathroom are good. Yesterday I purchased the time capsule from Apple. I needed it to back up my computer, and its cool. It does its job, but I bought it so I could use it as an extended hard drive, but for some reason it doesn't seem to be working properly. I called Apple Care last night, and they told me that they do not recommend using it to store movies and music on to play in iTunes, but that is what I need because I only have about 1.5 GB left on my computer's hard drive and I would either like to get more hard drive space or an extended hard drive that will work with my computer. The next time I get a computer, I am definitely going to buy the 2 Tb hard drive, because I use up the space so quickly with movies and music.

In other news, I have a date tonight. I actually asked someone out and I'm happy that I will finally get to get out of the house. It feels like I have been couped up for a long while. I hope that I am over this crap sooner rather then later. But honestly better late then never...lol.

My English class is almost finished and I feel really good about it. I cannot wait to get done with it and move on to the next one. Following this there are only 3 more classes to complete. Yay!

Insight to my life

Have you ever just wanted to leave and never look back? Sometimes I get that feeling. I think that is a little weird, but its the truth. So why do I feel this way sometimes? I really wish I could open up that door and figure it out. As you can tell I really do not enjoy talking about my emotions and I am truly trying to open up so that I can break through this cap that I have in opening up to my friends. I like to hold in everything, I guess its because I am truly afraid of being hurt, but I guess losing people is a way of life, is it not. My wife left me, my grandmothers past away, and a number of other people who let me down or hurt me in some way while I was friends with them. Is it really possible to open back up again? I like to hope so. I'm hoping that their is someone out their that I can be with. I am not looking for someone to spend my life with right now, but I am looking for someone that I can chill with, and just enjoy life. There is just way too many things going on in my life right now and I feel that if I do take someone fully into my life they will get bored and leave or I will not be able to keep up with the hanging out and partying with them because of work. Also missing half a year every year is kind of insane also. I am not sure how families handle that, mine dissolved in 4 months of being away, so go figure. I guess I am a little sour of the whole divorce thing, because promises were made to one another, and not kept. But I do not want to just pass all the blame off on my ex wife. I am at fault for the other half. I could have listened more and have been more into what she wanted, other then being away from home almost all the time. Miss her, can you tell. But hey, life goes on as it has always done since the beginning of time.

Just a story

I'm sitting here, just relaxing. I cant believe the week is finally over. There is so much crap that went on this week, I'm surprised that it actually ended. So what to do with the weekend? Christmas is approaching. That is always a good time of families and friends, but this year I am once again spending my Christmas here in Virginia Beach away from my family. There is so much stuff to take care of that its ridiculous. A story though for you. One of my colleagues didn't receive his pay check on Monday, think about that, not receiving a paycheck especially in this economy and at this time of the year. Crazy, can I say that he was a little upset about it. And in the age of electronic paychecks that go straight into your bank account, no one has the capability of processing a regular check to its personnel. Its ridiculous, I think. So my colleague had to wait two extra days for his pay to post. Its kind of crazy that in those two days, he was delinquent in about 10 payments. Interesting don't you think. People relay so much on their paychecks and don't really save any money locally, its all invested in stocks and bonds. So when you need to liquidate, its actually very hard and takes time. But who really expects to not get paid for doing their job right.

Work

It's time for a change. I am not sure as to why I feel this way, but I just do. I really think that I could honestly be doing The same thing for much much more money. I really wish I could just do something more that was worthwhile to me. Why do I feel this way? This is really interesting to me. It gets to me as you can tell. So, it is awesome that I get to shoot guns and do a lot of other shit, but I really think I can make myself enjoy it. I guess I can because this is who I am and this is a dream job. There are so many people that would be fine doing what I do. Don't get me wrong because I really love doing what I do but I really feel like it's the same thing day in and day out. Is there really any job out there that doesn't get like this after six years?



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What's going on

I'm not quite sure what is happening to me. Am I going through midlife crisis way early or is this actually how 26 year olds really act? Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy the partying and drinking and stuff like that, but I'm the one that the parents and friends call grandpa. I'm the one that never does the keg stands. I'm responsible. I'm actually Am the one that acts well beyond my years. Don't get me wrong I'm not going out and partying every chance I get. Back in my early twentys yeah not that long ago I actually partied every night, but I find urges lately to do it again. Honestly I had fun during that time, but then I got married and my perspective on life changed. My soon to be ex wife obviously didn't agree with all the staying in and that is why we broke it off because she liked to go out parting until the morning. I hate that shit, I just wish I didn't have the urges because I don't want that type of woman any more. I want an awesome girl who actually enjoys the finer things in life. I wonder if it's possible for me to meet her, whoever she is. I'm so tired lately and I have two long ass days tomorrow and Thursday. So much shit to do and not very much time to do it. I hate the extra admin bullshit at work. All stupid ass shit that is always needing to be verified and updated, verified and updated. I hate it...my personnel don't even like that shit. But hey it's what I do right. I think it's time for a career change.


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Change

Well, the start to turning my life around began. I cant believe it, I actually got through a whole day with someone that I was told didn't like me. We actually had fun, laughing, drinking, and enjoying each others company. Major points scored, if you ask me. As it turns out, we both had fun and I really enjoy her company. Go figure. Well, I have done not always good things in my life. What I mean by that is that I haven't always been truthful, mostly to my self. And that hurts no one but me. Sometimes I am a little over zealous and my ego gets big, but hey, isn't that the way a type A personality is? So far following this rigorous divorce, I have been challenged by life. I have overcome many obstacles and have probably hurt a few people in the after math of my divorce. For that I want to tell them I'm sorry. But, I am changing. I have challenged myself, to not fudge in anyway on honesty or commitment to my goals and the way I want to live my life. I'm honestly sick and tired of the way things have been going for me. There is more to my life, and I know I am meant to do something great in my life. Since I came into the Navy I have had this feeling that there is something missing, something more that I should be doing for humanity. I really feel that I must leave an impression in this world and right now, I feel that I am not even making a dent in the way things are going in this country or the world. I feel like I am stuck in Ground Hog day, every day the same thing, I wake up, go to work, come home, workout, watch TV, sleep and do the same thing, day in and day out. I'm honestly sick and tired of this. Its not my job, because honestly, really, lets face it, my job is AWESOME. I mean where else can a person jump out of planes and be at the fore front in a fight all at the same time. I love it. But I just have a feeling that my uses or my role can be apart of a much bigger picture. I'm still looking for that role that I need to fill. But for right now I have started to change my life with little things. Like Running for instance. Waking up in the morning early, right after the sun comes over the horizon and its glowing across the dew lit grass. Its so calming and elegant in its own way. BEAUTIFUL. So I am working up to actually doing that. I am putting together a list of things I want to personally accomplish prior to my 35th birthday. I know that is a while away, but lets face it, it takes time to go to those foreign countries.

Wasting time

What is up with the world today?I sometimess feel like I should have been born in a different era. Do any of you ever feel like your older then what you truely are? I feel that way all the time, and I really don't know how to explain it. It's bot like I watch movies that take place in the past either. It's just the way I am. Hmmm not even sure what I'm talking about anyway.

I guess I just needed to get that off of my chest. I requested the health care bill that is in the senate from Congressman Nye. I received a reply from him earlier today with the bill as the attachment. I have been reading through it all day today. I cannot believe how much crap is in it. Honestly, I really don't think that it will save the American people any money. Once I am finished writting a paper on it I will post my paper and the bill as an attachment for everyone to see. Also inpre of an upbeat news I am getting a tattoo. I found this awesome gothic cross with dragons intwined in it...can you say awesome? It looks very ancient..as I mentioned before I am drawn to things of this nature. I can't wait to give the tattoo artist the picture and my ideas to add into it and see what he come up with.


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Not sure

There are so many things in this world that people don't believe in. One of those things is magic. All though most people don't believe that someone can raise people from the dead, foresee the future, or even walk on water, even the Great Book, the Bible has people both good and bad doing these things. Jesus for one did all these things and more. So if it were not possible the makers son would not be able to do these things. I hope that someday I am good enough to learn these things. Now before you go all crazy on me think about it for a second. In the old days there was so much of this and although it was not shown in front of others often it was documented. But today this rarely happens. What happened
to the powers that made this happen. What happened to the gifted ones that changed the world. I wish they would come forth and hear my plea.
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Awesome day

Today was great, I actually sat around went over some of my paperwork and enjoyed redoing and rereading my essays for my English class. My portfolio will actually be complete by tomorrow, which is awesome! Well, I've been thinking about goin to see a movie tomorrow after I turn in my portfollio for grading. I'm not really sure what movie I should watch. If you have any ideas drop me a line. Tonight one of my good friends is back in town with his second wife. Huh, is it weird that whoever marries me will be known to all as my second wife also? I think it's sad when you look at it, what this world has come too in regards to divorce. My exwife and I didn't even try to work it out. It's just easier to call it quits nowdays and it makes me so mad that it is so easy. But who am I to judge right since I am apart of the statistics. But my friend is having a party at town center in an hour and I will be taking the night of relaxation off to go and have dinner and get caught up. Tis the season for family and friends, and I will definately enjoy my time with them all.


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Chillaxin

I'm sitting here, drinking a beer thinking about the world. All these electronics around me an I fins myself uninterested, thinking about how things used to be. I have always felt that I was suppose to be born in another time and ancient time. A time when thinks of folklore and alchemy where the future of sciences. Today it almost seems like there is nothing to discover on this world. Even scientists have persistently tried looking to space for answers. Oh food is ready...until later.


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Weather Day

No work today for me, I was so happy I really didn't feel like working. Actually lately, I haven't really felt like doing anything but sit around and just think about life. Things are weird right now in my life, not really sure if it's my job or personal things, but it is a little weird. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depresed or anything like that. I'm actually happy just find that I still can't sleep and have to pass out before my body will relax. I love this weather though...it's so calming for me. I could do with a little less wind though.

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I think I'm slacking on my blog entries, but I will get everything caught up tomorrow. Its veterans day tomorrow and I am glad....I really needed a day off this week to get caught up on the chores around the house and my school work...I secretly am hoping that it will be pouring outside all day tomorrow. Not sure why, but I really enjoy the rain. Perhaps I need to move to Washington where it rains all the time. Hugh....well, onto the review of the newest book I read.

Title: Glass Houses (Morganville Vampires Series #1)

Author: Rachel Caine

Review: If you are into Vampires, but not the twilight version but the version where they are mysterious creators, this book will take you in from the first few sentences. It displayed the human side of living in a town of Vampires, being afraid for your life from humans who work with the vampires. This book was really good. Although it is meant as a Young Adult book, it is still actually pretty interesting. The author has some really good twists in this story that leaves you wanting more. I'm hoping that I get the second book in this series so that I can continue to review her book's.

I am hoping that I get to download a few more books this week to read. I am almost done with Stephenie Meyer's book, The Host, so there should be a review for that book from me coming soon.

I am actually really enjoying reading lately and even though I get migraines if I read for too long, I find myself lately suffering through the pain, just to finish the book. I'm not sure if its the stories that are making me read more, or if its just the pleasure that I get from finishing another book. I know quite a few people that haven't read a book in a couple of years and I find it interesting, because their excuse is that there isn't time, but lately, I have been able to find the time to read, be it on a lunch break or just taking 20 minutes after work. I find that it calms me down and relaxes me after a long stressful day at work.

ANOTHER DAY!

I always seem to be making new essays, with whole new topics two days before an essay is due to my class. I don't under stand it. I try to stick with the essay that I chose a week prior, but it never looks or sounds good to me. Its the title of my essays that kill me. I can never seem to get them looking good so I toss the essay aside and start fresh and new. Take yesterday for example. I was reading through a Cause and Effect essay again revising it aloud, and I threw it aside and started on a new topic, because it didn't flow right. I make myself mad when I do that because I put a lot of effort and hours of my time into something, just to throw it away. But hey, if I don't like it, I don't expect others to like it. So I make an essay that I think others may enjoy.

This weekend I am planning on revising essays that I have previously submitted for grades. My English class that I am taking is an extremely great course. My instructor has actually really helped me with my writing. I am very glad that I took this course, above all my other courses. I have always struggled in my English courses because my writing has never been up to speed. I of course blame Hawaii for that. The Educational System there is not so good...another reason I am a Republican now vice a democrat. Obviously the Democratic Party with their, everyone gets equal stuff, is actually not working for the citizens of Hawaii, because as far as I remember, the public school system there, is definitely not up to speed. So I give thanks to all the Mainland schools that have stood with me.

I also received a new book from a publishing company today. Its called, The Host, by Stephenie Meyer. It should be a good book, I will be done with it by next Tuesday, so if you haven't read it, stay tuned for my review.

NOTHING SPECIAL

Just putting this out there, but has anyone heard of the Nephilum? I'm just wondering, because I'm interested in this type of Angel. Ive heard many different stories about them. If you know anything, please hit me up.

Moving on though. I cant get over how much people with the right jobs get paid in this world. I wish I knew that one person that could open up those doors, because honestly, that is all it takes, is that one person and then all your wildest dreams are open to you. But hey, this is life, and it goes on without you or not.

These past few weeks I have been so busy with work, I haven't even found time for myself. I also have a side thing going with writing description reviews about books, so in the last two weeks, publishing companies have been sending me electronic books asking me to read them and let them know what they think. This is actually interesting because they contacted me because of my Blogs on this website. Interesting right? Well, I have read two of the books they sent me. They are pretty good one book I read is called, Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick. Its an OK book, but definitely not my type the synchronization of Angels and Humans, is actually pretty interesting and that is what spawned my interest in Nephilum. What I'm about to say may not reflect to many of you, but to me when I read a book, I want to be engorged in it. I want to be able to have the words form a picture in my mind, where I can see everything from a third party standpoint.....kind of like watching a movie. When that happens, ITS A GOOD BOOK... This book, only did that at certain points, but I give it 3.5 stars. Its a great fast read. Another set of books I read that I got for FREE was yes, the Twilight Trilogy. All of the books. These, minus the love sappy love story, was actually pretty good. I'm fascinated by Vampires, so as you can probably assume, it automatically engrossed me and I could actually see everything play out as I was reading these books. I give it 4 stars...only because at points, I wanted to reach into the books and strangle Bella for her stupid about oh, I love him, or but I love this guy....I wanted to slap her a few times and tell her to get a grip. But all in all they were pretty good. This week I'll see what they send me. Hopefully they send me something else about Vampires....like I said I'm fascinated by the Supernatural.

BEING UPSET

Today has been so much a hassle it seems. So much stuff to do at work. And then I'm starting to notice that I forget an item, that I wanted to get to before I left work. It makes me so mad, because I really like to accomplish the goals that I set and when I get home and realize that I forgot to do one thing that I told someone else I would, it really upsets me, and yes I know tomorrow is another day, but its just the way I am. I like to ensure that things get done in an orderly and quickly fashion that is correct and punctual at the same time. I really dont like people who just shrug their shoulders and dont give a crap about their jobs....because I really believe that if they act like that in the Military they shouldnt be there at all, because they are in it just doing enough to get by....and that pisses me off. They should be in the military to actually protect this country and actually care about what they do....because what they do is vital to the security and national defense of this GREAT and AWESOME Nation. So many people in this world look to our young Nation for guidance, and god damn me if I am wrong, but people need to start acting like they care, or this Nation will cease to exist.

TOPICS

I am so tired. I really need to get to sleep. I have to come up with an idea for my cause and effect essay. I have a few ideas, but none of my classmates have left a reply to me yet, so how about I tell all of you, my readers, and you can comment me if you like.

Well, the first topic I was thinking about writing about was The causes and effects about joining the military instead of going directly into college. I mean I get to protect people in the United States and get credit for some college course and you get the GI Bill to use, if you end up wanting to get out. But when I think how great all that stuff sounds, my friends who actually went to college are now directors at Micron and HP. So, it does make me wonder where I would have been if I had continued my education. In the end though, I am actually really happy with the decisions I have made in my life and honestly can say I have no regrets.

Another topic that I was thinking about was the causes and effects of owning a home. I know right, pretty cool, well, think about it. It is the at the top of most peoples American Dreams. You get to actually pay for something you own, vice paying for someone elses home. The only downside that I can think of, is that when something breaks, its on you. There is no management to call to fix that sink....lol...I only bring this up because my kitchen sink was leaking and I had to fix it for the first time....glad that my boss is a plummer, so I called him to talk me through it over the phone. But let me tell you, it was a great feeling of pride fixing something yourself.

So let me know what you think about the two topics, Im open to any suggestions.

CATCHING UP

Its only Tuesday but this week feels like it has been long. I have been so busy that I actually havent had time to do school work. Today is the first day that I get to take an hour break before going back to work. Im most likely going to try and complete my entries following writing in my blog. I am so tired, if I fall asleep I may not even wake up...so I have to stay up. That is how much time I have spending at work. But I love my job and will stay up for days if need be.

I need to let everyone know. I think I am obsessed with Vampires and Warewolves. I know, its kind of weird, but I really am. I enjoy watching movies and reading about them. Lucky they are not real, because that would just be weird if they were. If you've seen the show True Blood, please let me know what you think about it. Ive been thinking about buying the season so I can watch it. Ive heard nothing but good things about it. I've also heard that there is a series that it goes off of, is that better then the show? I may just buy the book series instead. Well, I should get cracking on my school work, before I keep writing on here and run out of time to do that. Need to get it done today cause I dont know what I will be doing tomorrow.

Rain

I can't believe it's raining. Lately I have been looking forward to rainy weather. I'm not actually sure why but maybe it's because I really enjoy the dark weather. I kindof wish it was cloudy and dark all the time. I guess that's why I really like winter. The days are shorter and the nights are longer. It's nice and cold outside. I guess I figure that I like the cold weather because I can always put clothes on to stay warm but when it's hot you can only take off so much clothes to stay cool. I can't believe I'm babling like this right now. But hey the rain is something I really enjoy right now so why not let the world know it.

FOLLOWING THROUGH

I change my mind way to much. I have figured out one thing about myself and that is that I dont think I ever follow through with stuff. I mean, I follow through with my work assignments and tasks that other people give me and I work hard to follow through when other peoples careers and goals are on the line, but when it comes to my own personal goals...nope. I always seem to shove it to the side.

For example, every year I create an Officers Package. Brand new, I go through the boards, but I never submit the package to the promotion board. Why is that? I have always wondered about this myself. This year I am submitting for a promotion to become and LDO Officer, and I have a feeling that I will not follow through with it. I really want to do it, I am just worried I guess and always have been. I am great at what I do, but how do I know that I will give the same great work as an Officer. That is what I am worried about.

I know that I will continue to do my best always. I should take that and continue to work my way up the ladder as an Officer in the U.S. Navy. There is no difference in what I do now than what I will be doing as an Officer. Just a lot more pay...and I do mean a lot more pay. I owe it to myself and my family to go through with this and see it through to the end. So I am and I will make LDO and become the first ever to make VADM.

INSOMNIA

Do you ever get the feeling that you are tired, but yet, you cant fall asleep no matter what you do. Well, that is the way I feel right now. I'm tired, but I cant go to sleep....insomnia...over 60 million Americans suffer from Insomnia. I wish I could find the source of my insomnia, because it SUCKS! Insomnia takes a toll on my body and mind and after three days of no sleep, I pass out. It has happened before, where I pass out and before I know it a whole day was wasted on sleep because my body couldn't rest. Doctors say that in order to get rid of insomnia people, like me, have to change out bedtime habits. I disagree with this, because prior to me going to bed I am relaxed and ready to be soothed by the comforts of my pillow plushed mattress. However, I cannot rest. My mind is always racing wondering what needs to be done at work, trying to remember if that last bill went through so that I don't get charged a late fee. Its actually ridiculous. I have read about some people using sleeping pills to get rid of their insomnia, but pills all though over the counter, scare me, because even over the counter pills can be addicting. I am not going to be on of those people that get addicted to sleeping pills. If you have any ideas as to how to get rid of insomnia naturally, please let me know.

Other then my insomnia my day was really good. Had fun at work playing paint ball and enjoying the nice beautiful 60 degree weather. I love this weather....wish it was like this year round. I can get into the ocean with a thin wet suit and ride my motorcycle and enjoy the cool wind across my face. Its great. This is the way everyday is suppose to be.

VISIT AND A MOVIE

Today my Grandmother is coming to visit. There was so much to do prior to her arriving. I started dinner and it didn't turnout as well as I wanted to, but hey, it was my first time making homemade chicken noodle soup. I don't have time to make something new prior to her arriving, so I am shit out of luck on that one, so I hope she doesn't think its very bad. I just got done watching a movie called The Cove. It was pretty good, but all over the place. The plot was ok, but getting to the end was struggling. I almost turned the channel. The only thing that kept me into the movie was how good looking the woman was. In preparation for my grandmothers visit, I swept and mopped, but that is my normal Sunday routine anyway, and since it is getting cold, I finally swapped out my summer ware for winter clothing. I am washing all my winter clothes so I can hang them up. My summer clothes are already in storage. I just hope it doesn't become 80-90 degrees anymore or I will be shit out of luck on cool clothing.

In the news lately have you heard about the boy who was thought to be in a balloon? Well, the father told the sheriff in their town that it was a stunt to signal aliens. I believe in other life, but I highly doubt that Earth is even in the mix of galactic phenomenon just yet. I really hope that family is planning to pay for all the tax money they used. That Sheriffs department hunted and tracked that balloon for about two hours. I wonder who will be paying for that one? I know I will definitely not be.

Our country wastes so much money each year in taxes that it is ridiculous. People in Europe do not pay as much taxes as we do, and still their cities seem to be more uniform and up to date as ours. I wonder why that is.

Hmmm...Just wondering

I finally received some very important paperwork, but now I am thinking, if I should submit it. I am not sure why I am having this thought...I love the person in question, but my life with her is over. I mean, nothing good has come from this life with her. So I am in a bind, but I am going to do what I must do, to be happy again.

Today there are so many thing that happened. Work was a mad house today, everything went by so fast, Im surprised everything got done. Very exciting. I cannot wait to actually get back in the game of dating. There have been so many women that I have turned down and met, that I have wanted to date since my seperation, but I am a believer in marriage, and until the divorce is finalized completely I dont believe in dating.

On a brighter note, I have been thinking about writing a book. Now what type of book should I write? Hmmm....there are so many out there...do people actually write essays still? If so I wonder where they actually publish them. this is a question that I should look into. I could possibly submit one of my essays for publishing...not sure if anyone would actually read it though.

Also, what about a topic for a book. Should I write stories at all? I have a pretty good imagination, but not sure if anyone else would find it interesting. But Im not even sure where to start writing at. How do they actually make chapters flow into one another. I wonder if I should find an author and write to them asking them for insight.

WEEK 8 ENGLISH

This week in English I had to do a classification and division draft. It took me a few days to actually put together a division draft, but I still think that it was not my best work. I have read chapter 15 about three times, with little success on figuring the division thing out. I fully understand the compare/contrast portion but division in writing. I divided up my organization and then I couldn't figure out a thesis as to why I was trying to write about my organization...go figure if its not one thing its another right. If I have to write about this in a paper, then I will have to think of a better thesis then the one I submitted this week, because that thesis will defiantly not be able to make a well written paper.

I think I need to actually talk to the instructor about this topic in particular, but I feel that it may actually be low on the scale to bug her about. But its always worth asking I guess.

WEEK EVENTS

This week has been an extrodinary week. As you have probably noticed, I have not been talking about the Obama Administration very much. The reason behind this is because I have been on a Book crave for a while. Sometimes I get in the mood to just read, and when this happens, I read a lot. Lately, I have been reading a book called, "New Tricks" by John Levitt. So far its about a practitioner of magik that is trying to place together the events of a recent loss friend. If you into magic and enjoy mysteries, then this is a pretty good book, and an easy read. Im hoping on finishing this by tomorrow, so I can start on another book. This new book will be on Vampires but I have not made up my mind on which one it will be yet.

Also, I have been painting the trim and doors around my house white, because I want to portray a crisp look throughout my home. So far, it is looking very good. I cannot wait until I replace the counters in my kitchen with Quartz. Then I will be able to relax a little on the modifications to my home.

Later this week my grandmother who I have not seeing in over a year will be finally coming to Virginia to see me. Im actually quite nervous, because she is the only relative that has actually been to my home, vice my wife and daughter of course. Not really sure what we will do, but I will think of a few places to take her. It will be a great time.

ABE LINCOLN v BARACK OBAMA

I have decided that my compare and contrast essay will be on Abe Lincoln v. Barack Obama. I will be discussing their political background, and their envision of America.

Towards the end of the current President, Barack Obama, campaign the Democratic party started to connect certain similarities between Barack Obama and Abraham Lincoln, the most legendary President in our Countries History. Due to the fact that both opposed existing Wars and alleged deliberate deception by the Presidents who started them. Lincoln opposed the Mexican-American War and Obama the Iraq War. What the Democratic Party doesn't want you to know though is that although Abraham Lincoln opposed the Mexican-American War, he was also a republican. This difference in political party alone, is a reason why Obama will not be a legendary president that the Democratic Party thought he would be.

Obama and Lincoln also have to major different visions of our they want America to be. Lincoln envisioned America as a country "conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal." Lately in all of Obama's speeches and reforms Obama wants all men to stay equal. With no gain in capital but an equal Socialist Nation. Well, if I am alive and if anyone believes in freedom and liberty, they will not stand for a Socialist Nation. During his time as President, Lincoln, suspended the writ of habeas corpus to keep the tattered union together. Obama is trying to create a civilian paramilitary force to accomplish our "national security objectives," another example of how he is turning our country in to a Socialist Nation.

Another similarity that people say they had the same amount of political competence also, however, Lincoln was a seasoned politician who served in the Illinois state legislature and the U.S. Congress for a combined 22 years before becoming President, while Obama served seven years as a State Senator and two years as a U.S. Senator before campaigning for President.

Last but not least lets focus on education. Lincoln had virtually no formal education. He did have streets smarts and a dedication to learn. In fact, he was able to practice law because the U.S. Supreme court deemed him qualified to study Constitutional Law. Obama, however, attended Columbia and Harvard.

Obviously there are only small similarities between these two people and Obama should not be placed next to our most legendary President who deserves the highest respect that our Nation has to offer. Obama a young President has a lot to learn and a lot to accomplish for our country. Do not get the idea that he will not be a good President just because of the extreme differences between him and one of the most spectacular Presidents our Nation has had. President Obama will learn to coup with our Nations issues and will by his second year in term realize that you cannot please everyone, and we will start seeing him run the Presidency the way he wants it ran vice it being the voice of his Administration.

26 and loving life

Well, since yesterday was my birthday, I feel great. I went out last night and had a great time. I wasn't actually expecting it to be as fun as it was. I haven't gone out for almost a year. At first it was a little weird being out. All of you married folk know what I'm talking about. It's just a weird feeling being out without your significant other cause you always get that weird feeling when you talk to other women. Well, I had a great time after I got a few down.

Today, I got up and started my chores around the house. All day today I've been thinking, I wish I could actually score a great job where I could wake up anytime I wanted and actually make money while I slept. I know money isn't everything, but I just wish I had enough that I never actually had to worry about it. I used to have that type of life, but then I decided to venture out on my own and join the Navy. I'm a true patriot at heart and I'm glad that I decided to protect this country.

Moving on though, my thoughts on this essay that is due wednesday, I really feel strongly about proving that president Obama I'd nothing like President Lincoln. So I will be discussing that. I'm really hoping that it doesn't spark a controversy with my fellow classmates. It's only my opinion and I hope they all take it from and educational stance.

Well, I will be doing a little freewriting tomorrow on it, I will share with you all tomorrow. Good night.

FALL/ESSAY IDEAS

Its that time of the year....FALL! This is my favorite time of the year, so many festivities going on and the weather is almost perfect. Not to mention my birthday is at the beginning of this great time, just when the leaves start fall and the air when you step out the door in the morning is crisp to the taste when you breath in. Also, my favorite holiday is in the fall, Hollows Eve. I've always had a slight pull towards the legends of beings in this world.

Well, today I did some of my English homework and I am currently trying to think of a few topics to write about in my compare and contrast essay. I have thought of a few, such as, the differences of Abe Lincoln and Barack Obama. I wanted to write about this because he was always considering himself like Abe Lincoln, when he really isn't, but I think that maybe a little to controvertible. Other things I am thinking about is the differences in nocturnal animals and daylight animals, plays v. movies, and books compared to movies and do they both really offer the same stimulation in the human brain? All of them are interesting, but I am really interested in writing about how Obama is nothing like Honest Abe and how the impacts on Society are totally different. I may just write about this and see if a few heads turn. I think its worth the risk…but we will see.

TO GET IN OR GET OUT OF THE MILITARY

Well, lately I have been surrounding myself with the idea of getting out of the Navy. Yup, I may actually get out, pfhhhh, yea right. I cant get out, to much to do, and honestly, I love spending all of your tax money....hehe, jk. No but seriously, I really enjoy protecting this country, just wish I had a much wider range to grow. I have outgrown my current ground and I think I may actually be ready for more. I want more and need to have more. More job excitement that is. So I have recently made the decision to become a Mustang. All of you people, who are reading this, that really know me and work with me, DO NOT DISCUSS THIS IN THE OFFICE. I will be thoroughly upset, I have gone to great lengths not to let the senior leadership in that office know that I am doing this, in fact, only two people in that office know about this, Troy Giger and Butto, and they both know why. I am very excited to have the opportunity to become a Mustang, and actually not many people get the chance. All I have to do to complete this is actually become board eligible for E7. Which should not be difficult. I thoroughly enjoy my rate, but I want to actually run the show. I am an extremely good leader, when people will allow me to lead. I do not hesitate, I take everything that I know and if I do not know it, I will research it. My subordinates usually have a pretty high Morale unless it is something they are dealing with personally, which I am fully willing to help them out with or point them in the right direction, in which they could get help. I am ready and willing to accept the challenges and the opportunity to prove myself as a Mustang.

Also, I am very excited lately that I may actually be doing good now days. I finally started working out again and I'm really happier, which is great. I'm almost done with this divorce that has been the center of all this depression. Because there were times that I just didn't know what my soon to be ex wife wanted...did she want to stay, did she want to go. Finally, I woke up, a few weeks ago, and went and filed and had her Charged with the paperwork. Now just waiting on her signature. The thing to know is that I fully Love my wife, and probably always will. But I cant be in a relationship with a woman who never calls, never writes, and moves away without telling her husband where she is going while he is deployed. That just isn't right. Well, I can honestly say, I am happy! The happiest I have been in about a year and a half. I have my Birthday coming up on Saturday, I have a roof over my head, which a great rate on my mortgage. Life goes on and I am happy to be apart of it.

END OF THE WEEK

This was a great weekend. Although I have a cold, I have gotten a lot accomplished, and very proud of that. This weekend, I finished up the little details of missed painting spots in the kitchen, and got the whole living room painted. I have three days to complete the dining room and the fireplace wall, since I want that to standout in the living room. My grandmother will be here sometime next week I think, which I cant wait. I havent seen her in a long while, and it will be great to have her visit. This is the first time that a family member will be visiting me and I want everything to be perfect for her. My furniture in my living room is all out of place right now, because the walls are still drying, but Im thinking about redoing the layout of the living room. Im uncertain as to where to place my TV wether it should go above the fireplace or on the wall that used to have my couch up against it. I purchased a wall mount for it, so I want to use it, just unsure which place to put it. If you have any ideas, let me know. Im open to all suggestions. As for the healthcare reform, I apologize to all of you, because I honestly have not been watching the news or reading the paper lately due to personal things going on in my life. Im turning a new leaf and need to work on me at the moment instead of following the news. So dealing about me, I am feeling much happier today, and cant believe that the sun actually came out. I cant wait to finally get my home in tip top shape and the way that I truely want it. Granted for some of the stuff I will have to save up for, but it is well worth it. Have a good night, I will chat with all of you soon.

WHAT TO DO

I am kind of upset with myself. I recently had to write a personal essay for my English class, and I have to say it took a long time for me to even think about what I wanted to write about. I wrote about three different essays and when I read over each of them, there was no moral to the stories that I told. They didn't answer that question Why. It makes me ask, if any of the events that I went through in my past, actually made an impact on my life. I'm sure they have, but I honestly didn't see it when I wrote it down. So that really got me upset. I think that the essay I submitted was the closest I could come, but I know that there is more to that story that maybe I am missing. It did happen almost 20 years ago so I guess I have a reason for not actually remembering every event that occurred.

In brighter news though, I think I found a color for my living room. Since I didn't like the blue, I'm going with a Brown tone. I think the natural look will increase the colors I want to use as accents. I am far from being an interior decorator, I'm more of an Outside type of person. Very much into extreme sports. So when it comes to colors and mixing colors and pulling different textures into the mix, yeah, I'm not your man for the job. But give me a parachute and a free plane ride up to about 12,900 ft AGL and you can bet your ass I will jump out of that perfectly good airplane.

Extreme sports to me is a way that I can live on the edge. I really enjoy the thrill and satisfaction it gives me. It reminds me that we live everyday with respect to the world around us. Also, I fully believe that taking things to the extreme allows you to actually feel one with nature.

COLOR

Well, for the last three days I have been wondering, what color to actually paint my home. My grandmother will be coming in the middle of next month and I have about 10 different colors on the wall in the living room. Yes, I know, I'm crazy. I really want a modern, contemporary, sophisticated color to be on my walls. I went and got a blue-gray for my first color on Saturday and I came home, excited that I finally got the color I was looking for, well I threw a little bit on the wall and noticed that it was pretty much black at first. As the paint dried it did get lighter but it was still too dark for the living room. I want a dark color but not one that makes the place look claustrophobic, if you know what I mean. So I went with a lighter blue-sky blue...yes I know its the opposite side of dark, but I thought maybe that would brighten up the room, and brighten up it did, and now it looks a little too kid like. I am still up in the air on the color for the living room right now. But the one color that I did decide on that, I had no issues choosing was my kitchen. My kitchen color is called honeycomb. And it is in between yellow and gold. It works with my kitchen because my tile has gold-brown streaks in it and my soon to be counter top will have gold streaks in it that will tie the wall into the room. Plus it just brightens up the space, and for some reason makes me feel good. I really hope to have that room completely painted by Saturday morning so, I can spend the rest of the day power washing my home. It really needs a lift. My living room, I need to find a paint color...if you know of a color, please feel free to respond and let me know. I am open to all colors, so just tell me.

My home needs a lot of personal touches that I really want to make on it, but the cost of things right now and my pay check really do not go well together. Right now, I get paid well, but due to recent circumstances, I now have a major debt placed on me, and I am trying to pay it off. Its very stressful and pretty much sucks. I stress about money issues because it really isn't me. I am a person who never gets credit cards or loans and only lives off of my own money. But when your wife does use a credit card and then wants to have a divorce. Mostly the guy gets stuck with the outcome, and right now I just don't feel like fighting it anymore. I'm tired, stressed, and depressed. I hate the way I feel right now cause I am an outgoing individual that normally works out A LOT. I haven't actually worked out in about 3 months, and I feel disgusting. I feel that painting the house is also like getting a new start, arrange the furniture put up new curtains, and I will be ready to start this new single life. Working out is my main focus. I love working out it relieves stress and created endorphins, which make you happy. And that is what I want to be, Happy.

RESPECT

Well, I am finally all caught up with my work from last week. I have been so busy dealing with stuff at work that it is all that I can think about right now. But one of the assignments last week in my English class reminded me that if we respect our surroundings, then everything in the world will turnout just fine. My Uncle Larry is one of the people that I look up to in my life and I always craved to have the amount of Aloha that he had. It is hard to explain the essence that I am talking about unless you witness it first hand, but the grace, respect, and helpfulness that he shows everyone is something I have always tried to achieve. I think I am good at respect and helpfulness but not in the same way that he does it. His love for GOD, family, friends, and people in general are all above me. I still try to do all those things on his level. Maybe if everyone in the world would show the same respect for everyone, as they would like unto them, this world would be so much different then what it is now. Now we have a corrupt government and people who are only looking out for them. I agree with what Glen Beck has been saying on FOX News. We do need to get the corrupt out of DC and get this Government back to the way it is suppose to be. The people can do this. The people are the ones that brought this country up from nothing. The people are the ones who can overthrow or change the government, not the people in DC. They really have no control over this…. WE the people of the United States have the control. The people in DC are only our puppets. They represent us and are suppose to tell everyone what we would like done, and if everyone in the US is telling their representatives or senators the same things that is when it is placed into a bill and passed. Not the other way around. WE hold the responsibility to our Children and our Children’s Children to ensure that they have a future in a Free Democracy.

NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT

Well, today I have barely had time to actually think about what I want to write about. So I'm just going to go with the flow of things. I did hear however, that congress is not going to approve the new Obama Health Reform, instead they have decided to look at other options. And as I stated earlier they are going to slow down and take their time developing the new Health Care System...because after all it is our lives that they are dealing with. On another note, Obama is now pushing his Financial Reform into play. I have not heard very much about this Reform but you can bet that I will be following it and will definitely have some sort of opinion on the ordeal.

What is up with Congress lately? I mean not only are they picking apart the Obama Administration but now they are questioning Obama's Czars. All Presidents have had Czars, and like all Presidents Obama has chosen to use Czars, but he does have a lot of them now doesn't he, twice as much as any other President in US History...perhaps that is why Congress is so upset. There are more then 30 Czars that they do not have oversight on. Go figure, Big Brother trying to keep control of their own...lol. I promise you I will watch more of the news tomorrow, so I will have more information to talk about. But I am extremely tired...have a wonderful night everyone.

GREAT DAY TODAY

Today was a great day. It was great not only because I got a lot of stuff at work completed, but I also learned a lot today dealing with Divorce's. I know that Divorce is not a good thing, but I am going through a very lengthy one and it has been dificult processing all of the forms, not only because the people that work at the Virginia Beach Circuit Court will not help you locate the forms, but that they want you to get an attorney so your fees will be greater. I had to have a friend of mine, who is an attorney tell them to give me a case docket from the last divorce case, which is public record. And they still didnt want to give it up because they are all about having you pay money for making them work. I was glad that my friend was there to help me out with getting the information that I wanted. I think that it was rediculus that they couldnt help me get the forms I needed, but I was glad that I triumphed over the court system today.

Also, I hate that I cannot find enough time in my busy schedule to do more school work, I mean yes I get the work that I need to done, but I hate that it is always in the nick of time. It actually amazes me that I even have time for it with my job being 24/7. I mean look at today, I just got off work about 20 minutes ago. Im so glad that work didnt go longer.

Now, as you all probably are thinking, the hell with hearing about your life...we want to know more about the Health Care Reform....well, I have been watching it, and honestly, I think that if the Health Care Reform goes through then we will be paying a lot after 10 years towards this. I really would like Health Care for everyone, but there has to be a way that it wont break our pockets, there just has to be a way. I really dont want to have this bill pushed through now and the entire US Economy goes to shit again towards the end of this Administration. What good will it do us?

ISSUES

Since the Presidents speech last night there has been only speculation and bashing on both sides of Congress with no headway towards a goal. I personally am very upset with the way our Congress is handling this situation. We should have a good health care system in place, and we do have some of the best minds in the world living in the United States. Why can we not come up with a better system? Why can we not bring on a better way of life? Our ancestors in colonial America thought up a better system, and made this country into a GREAT nation. We are slowly bringing our GREAT nation down. Our nation is the leading nation in the World and whether we like it or not, we owe it to all people in the World that want Freedom to have it. But as my Grandmother has always told me, we need to first ensure that our home is safe, then we can slowly expand. Right now, it is time for the American people to get that warm and fuzzy. We don't need health care reform. We need a better health care system. We need to cleanse our nation of illegal aliens, either by automatically approving those that are already here in our country for citizenship, so that they too can be taxed, or by deportation, which honestly, would cost the American people millions, if not trillions of dollars to do. Then, we need to safeguard our borders to prevent another 9/11 because yes, people, there are others out there that want to kill FREEDOM, they want to make FREEDOM, into nothingness. And they cannot stand that a country as GREAT as AMERICA is a nation of mixed religions and races. They will stop at nothing to bring this nation to the GROUND. Then we can inch outward, helping other nations that WANT our HELP. Because lets face it folks there are those nations out there that just don't care what happens to them. I have to admit that there are a lot of issues that this nation as whole needs to face. The government not only holds most of these issues close at hand, but they are issues that Americans know about, just most don't act on it. Some Americans don't even vote. I must say, SHAME ON ALL OF YOU THAT DO NOT VOTE. That is a freedom that not only, I fight for, but a freedom that this nation was founded upon. This nation wanted the Freedom to choose our own leaders out of the GRASP of the British and you don't even utilize it, shame on you all.

I have so much more that I could talk about regarding things that need to be addressed and completed. And maybe one day I will be a Senator where I can fight for all these things or at least bring them up into Congress. Because honestly Health Care is just the start to fixing our Nation from within. There is a huge amount of things in this nation that could be fixed following Health Care.

GOD Bless AMERICA and her people.

REPUBLICAN SIDE OF REFROM

Republicans believe that there are a number of potential areas for common ground with the Presidents reform plan for Health Care for all Americans. Republicans are promoting commonsense reforms instead of a Public Health Care Reform. They want to reduce the number of uninsured Americans, and increase quality of health care at a price our country can afford while still making sure that Americans who enjoy their health care coverage can keep it.

The House Republican Health Care Solutions Group has spent months on a plan, while listening to Americans, talking to doctors and patients, and collecting input from other sources. The process of the Republican Parties reform plan that the solutions group has come up with will receive bipartisan support.

Agreeing with the President, Republicans want to have quality health care coverage affordable and accessible for every American, regardless of pre-existing health conditions. They want to let Americans who like their health care coverage keep it, and give all Americans the freedom to choose the health plan that best meets their needs.

Not agreeing with the President the Republicans want to protect Americans from being forced into a new government-run health care plan that would: eliminate the health care coverage that more than 100 million Americans currently receive through their job, limit your choice of doctors and medical treatment options, and result in the federal government taking control of your health care.

Also in tonight's speech the President pretty much said that he is willing to work with the Republicans and anyone that will bring in a bill that will help to better the Health Care of the American people. The President in doing this has the applaud of many Republicans. His push for a reform in our Nations Health Care is a good one, and one that needs to be properly addressed and looked at. It is not an issue that can be thought of in a moments notice.

So readers, the Nation will have a reform in the way we all receive Health Care, but how is the question that we all have on our minds. Will the Democrats listen to the Republicans and vice versa, or will we be lost in a struggle of bureaucracy?

Citations:

Blunt, Roy . "House GOP Solutions Group Outlines Health Care Plan to Increase Affordability, Accessibility, Availability" . GOP Leader . Web. 17 Jun 2009.

Address to a Joint Session of Congress: President Barack Obama discusses health-care reform.PBS.WHRO.Virginia Beach, VA. 9 Sep 2009.

MORE ON HEALTHCARE

Hello readers, I have some new information for you. The People are starting to see the high cost and socialism behind the Health Care Bill. People are going to their Congressman and Congresswomen and telling them that if they want to see another term they will not pass this bill in its entirety.

Like I was explaining before, there are already programs out there that are fully capable of helping people NOW, and could be made better. So much better that it could help not only the people on welfare but also the lower middle class families in the United States.

On Monday I watch a round table discussion with some of the best minds in the world on this issue, and I must say, they brought up GREAT points, not only that people who are unemployed need a way of buying health care, but a point of the American public spending so much money on health care these days, around 2 trillion dollars more than people in Europe. The top medical people in the United States are claiming that Americans have let themselves go and are becoming more and more obese each year. With that, the top health care companies are claiming that for those Americans that Don't Smoke, Don't Drink, Exercise Regularly and stay in shape they give discounts too. And in all reality Health Care for everyone will go down if everyone was healthier because there would be less people in the Hospitals for being obese and things of that nature.

Another point that was brought up is that we would be spending a fraction of the cost of this new bill to fix what we have already established making it more accessible and better supportive of the lower income families in the United States.

I have to organize a few more ideas but just wanted to give you an update on what I am hearing from the people.

IM SORRY

I have to apologize to everyone because I have not been able to read up on the current events dealing with the Health Care Reform. I seriously want to let all of you know about what is going on dealing with this Heal Care Reform because there is still a lot of stuff that is in this Reform that are not good for the U.S. as a whole.

Its just that I have been extremely busy at work. I was so glad to just get off on time today. I have been so tired that I actually fell asleep in my car when I got home. I only woke up because it was getting really hot while I was sitting in the car. I was covered in sweat.

I will be getting information back to everyone within the next two days regarding the reform. I have to tell all of you that I seriously am not very impressed with the Obama Administration. I was hoping that when this innovative person took the Presidency that he would bring a good change to the U.S. but ever since he too the seat of President he has been acting like a Manchurian Candidate. Not really doing anything he promised all the people that voted for him. He has also only brought items to the table that bring Socialism to a free Country. What is up with that? That is the last thing that people want here in the U.S. but some people are praising him for it, which is remarkable. Do those people actually understand what the bills he is bringing to Congress actually mean? They should read some of these bills in its entirety instead of just the Title. Its actually ridiculous. Some of the new voters that have never voted before but only now come to vote, only cared to get out of this war. Well, people, the war is not over, and honestly, why would you want to change the front of this war, from somewhere that we can control? If we pull out of the Middle East then guess what, the front lines are here at home. No matter what you think, the truth is that the font lines will be LA, NY, Washington DC. Do you want more September 11 to occur? But maybe that is exactly what the people of the U.S. need in order to understand what we are actually fighting for. Some people are ridiculous. Good night, I'm very mad now.

NOT MUCH

Hello, everyone. Well, I have started a little research on my main focus of the Health Care reform issue. I will be getting to that in my next post hopefully. Work has been ridiculous lately. I am talking waking up at 5 going in at 6 AM and then leaving work at 11 PM. Now why do I work for so little, oh yeah, I'm in the military, I don't have a choice in the matter....sad thing is, that I love my job. Just wish it wasn't so sporadic all the time.

For instance today I was helping one of my mentors move into a new home. We were all finished it was 3PM, I grabbed a beer from the newly installed refrigerator and sat down on the couch...I popped the top off of the beer and was just putting the neck to my lips when my cell went off with huge black letters on it saying EMERGENCY you are needed at work. I handed the beer to my friend and said, I'm sorry I have to go...and off I went back into work.
Well, I guess I will let you all know that I have not received any emails from people regarding my previous post. But as time goes on, I am hoping I will. I think it will allow many people to get their concerns and why they think Obama's Health Care plan is a good thing or a bad thing out.

Getting Started

Hello to everyone. This is the first blog I have ever had. I am hoping that I turnout to liking this, because it seems like a good way to get my ideas and thoughts out, so the world may read them. LOL, if the world really cares.

On the news lately I have been hearing a lot about the health care and how the Obama administration wants to streamline the health care industry, which would all in all give everyone the same health care across the U.S. That really sounds good doesn't it...I think it does. Same health care for everyone, no matter how much they get paid. AWESOME! But what about all the private health insurance companies that are out there that many of us work so hard to pay for just in case an incident happens. I was watching one of the many showings of President Obama discussing this exact issue, in a small town, in the Midwest somewhere. President Obama brought up a good realization, that the health care industry is no different than the Postal Service...both FEDEX and UPS are very competitive and are doing much better in the Stock Market then USPS, which is run by the government.

But yet on the other side of this equation, does the government, giving out free health care to everyone really benefit the effects of the economy and does it make our Beloved Free Country more into a Socialist one? Now that is the million dollar question right now. The last part of that question is the one that has everyone jumping to vote against this bill. I just hope that the individuals that we voted for on the Hill are looking into this Bill, not only as one that will bring Socialism to our beloved FREE Country, but I also want them to be able to come up with a plan that will allow all of the people living in this Country, who have a right to seek medical attention be able too.

Here is a little tidbit that I want to write real quickly about the last part of my statement there, that I just thought about. I am originally from Hawaii, and when I was younger there, and actually just until last year, I actually fell under the Hawaii State Government Medical System. It allows me an individual who was staying with my family, who is on welfare at the moment, be able to afford health care. And actually its FREE. Its from Kaiser Permanente. I wonder why they don't use that type of system. The people who qualify for Welfare definitely need help in acquiring health insurance and this is one way that they are capable of doing that. But what about the Middle Class right, well, since I joined the Military, I now fall under this Middle Class Society. I am neither poor nor rich, and far from well off. Well, this middle class people should be working, or else they would not be in the Middle Class. Do their jobs not offer health care at all? Most jobs now days do, because it is one of the perks about hiring people. The better the assets of what a company has to offer, offers more turnout for job openings, which offer a broader range of new personnel to choose from, does that even make since?

Well, as you can see I am very much into what changes are about to come under the Obama administration not only because what they do there on the Hill affects my work, it also affects me as a citizen of this GREAT Country. I will read up a more on the health care issue and get back to all of you. Please feel free to post comments on what you think about it, I enjoy hearing different thoughts and ideas.