BEING UPSET

Today has been so much a hassle it seems. So much stuff to do at work. And then I'm starting to notice that I forget an item, that I wanted to get to before I left work. It makes me so mad, because I really like to accomplish the goals that I set and when I get home and realize that I forgot to do one thing that I told someone else I would, it really upsets me, and yes I know tomorrow is another day, but its just the way I am. I like to ensure that things get done in an orderly and quickly fashion that is correct and punctual at the same time. I really dont like people who just shrug their shoulders and dont give a crap about their jobs....because I really believe that if they act like that in the Military they shouldnt be there at all, because they are in it just doing enough to get by....and that pisses me off. They should be in the military to actually protect this country and actually care about what they do....because what they do is vital to the security and national defense of this GREAT and AWESOME Nation. So many people in this world look to our young Nation for guidance, and god damn me if I am wrong, but people need to start acting like they care, or this Nation will cease to exist.

TOPICS

I am so tired. I really need to get to sleep. I have to come up with an idea for my cause and effect essay. I have a few ideas, but none of my classmates have left a reply to me yet, so how about I tell all of you, my readers, and you can comment me if you like.

Well, the first topic I was thinking about writing about was The causes and effects about joining the military instead of going directly into college. I mean I get to protect people in the United States and get credit for some college course and you get the GI Bill to use, if you end up wanting to get out. But when I think how great all that stuff sounds, my friends who actually went to college are now directors at Micron and HP. So, it does make me wonder where I would have been if I had continued my education. In the end though, I am actually really happy with the decisions I have made in my life and honestly can say I have no regrets.

Another topic that I was thinking about was the causes and effects of owning a home. I know right, pretty cool, well, think about it. It is the at the top of most peoples American Dreams. You get to actually pay for something you own, vice paying for someone elses home. The only downside that I can think of, is that when something breaks, its on you. There is no management to call to fix that sink....lol...I only bring this up because my kitchen sink was leaking and I had to fix it for the first time....glad that my boss is a plummer, so I called him to talk me through it over the phone. But let me tell you, it was a great feeling of pride fixing something yourself.

So let me know what you think about the two topics, Im open to any suggestions.

CATCHING UP

Its only Tuesday but this week feels like it has been long. I have been so busy that I actually havent had time to do school work. Today is the first day that I get to take an hour break before going back to work. Im most likely going to try and complete my entries following writing in my blog. I am so tired, if I fall asleep I may not even wake up...so I have to stay up. That is how much time I have spending at work. But I love my job and will stay up for days if need be.

I need to let everyone know. I think I am obsessed with Vampires and Warewolves. I know, its kind of weird, but I really am. I enjoy watching movies and reading about them. Lucky they are not real, because that would just be weird if they were. If you've seen the show True Blood, please let me know what you think about it. Ive been thinking about buying the season so I can watch it. Ive heard nothing but good things about it. I've also heard that there is a series that it goes off of, is that better then the show? I may just buy the book series instead. Well, I should get cracking on my school work, before I keep writing on here and run out of time to do that. Need to get it done today cause I dont know what I will be doing tomorrow.

Rain

I can't believe it's raining. Lately I have been looking forward to rainy weather. I'm not actually sure why but maybe it's because I really enjoy the dark weather. I kindof wish it was cloudy and dark all the time. I guess that's why I really like winter. The days are shorter and the nights are longer. It's nice and cold outside. I guess I figure that I like the cold weather because I can always put clothes on to stay warm but when it's hot you can only take off so much clothes to stay cool. I can't believe I'm babling like this right now. But hey the rain is something I really enjoy right now so why not let the world know it.

FOLLOWING THROUGH

I change my mind way to much. I have figured out one thing about myself and that is that I dont think I ever follow through with stuff. I mean, I follow through with my work assignments and tasks that other people give me and I work hard to follow through when other peoples careers and goals are on the line, but when it comes to my own personal goals...nope. I always seem to shove it to the side.

For example, every year I create an Officers Package. Brand new, I go through the boards, but I never submit the package to the promotion board. Why is that? I have always wondered about this myself. This year I am submitting for a promotion to become and LDO Officer, and I have a feeling that I will not follow through with it. I really want to do it, I am just worried I guess and always have been. I am great at what I do, but how do I know that I will give the same great work as an Officer. That is what I am worried about.

I know that I will continue to do my best always. I should take that and continue to work my way up the ladder as an Officer in the U.S. Navy. There is no difference in what I do now than what I will be doing as an Officer. Just a lot more pay...and I do mean a lot more pay. I owe it to myself and my family to go through with this and see it through to the end. So I am and I will make LDO and become the first ever to make VADM.

INSOMNIA

Do you ever get the feeling that you are tired, but yet, you cant fall asleep no matter what you do. Well, that is the way I feel right now. I'm tired, but I cant go to sleep....insomnia...over 60 million Americans suffer from Insomnia. I wish I could find the source of my insomnia, because it SUCKS! Insomnia takes a toll on my body and mind and after three days of no sleep, I pass out. It has happened before, where I pass out and before I know it a whole day was wasted on sleep because my body couldn't rest. Doctors say that in order to get rid of insomnia people, like me, have to change out bedtime habits. I disagree with this, because prior to me going to bed I am relaxed and ready to be soothed by the comforts of my pillow plushed mattress. However, I cannot rest. My mind is always racing wondering what needs to be done at work, trying to remember if that last bill went through so that I don't get charged a late fee. Its actually ridiculous. I have read about some people using sleeping pills to get rid of their insomnia, but pills all though over the counter, scare me, because even over the counter pills can be addicting. I am not going to be on of those people that get addicted to sleeping pills. If you have any ideas as to how to get rid of insomnia naturally, please let me know.

Other then my insomnia my day was really good. Had fun at work playing paint ball and enjoying the nice beautiful 60 degree weather. I love this weather....wish it was like this year round. I can get into the ocean with a thin wet suit and ride my motorcycle and enjoy the cool wind across my face. Its great. This is the way everyday is suppose to be.

VISIT AND A MOVIE

Today my Grandmother is coming to visit. There was so much to do prior to her arriving. I started dinner and it didn't turnout as well as I wanted to, but hey, it was my first time making homemade chicken noodle soup. I don't have time to make something new prior to her arriving, so I am shit out of luck on that one, so I hope she doesn't think its very bad. I just got done watching a movie called The Cove. It was pretty good, but all over the place. The plot was ok, but getting to the end was struggling. I almost turned the channel. The only thing that kept me into the movie was how good looking the woman was. In preparation for my grandmothers visit, I swept and mopped, but that is my normal Sunday routine anyway, and since it is getting cold, I finally swapped out my summer ware for winter clothing. I am washing all my winter clothes so I can hang them up. My summer clothes are already in storage. I just hope it doesn't become 80-90 degrees anymore or I will be shit out of luck on cool clothing.

In the news lately have you heard about the boy who was thought to be in a balloon? Well, the father told the sheriff in their town that it was a stunt to signal aliens. I believe in other life, but I highly doubt that Earth is even in the mix of galactic phenomenon just yet. I really hope that family is planning to pay for all the tax money they used. That Sheriffs department hunted and tracked that balloon for about two hours. I wonder who will be paying for that one? I know I will definitely not be.

Our country wastes so much money each year in taxes that it is ridiculous. People in Europe do not pay as much taxes as we do, and still their cities seem to be more uniform and up to date as ours. I wonder why that is.

Hmmm...Just wondering

I finally received some very important paperwork, but now I am thinking, if I should submit it. I am not sure why I am having this thought...I love the person in question, but my life with her is over. I mean, nothing good has come from this life with her. So I am in a bind, but I am going to do what I must do, to be happy again.

Today there are so many thing that happened. Work was a mad house today, everything went by so fast, Im surprised everything got done. Very exciting. I cannot wait to actually get back in the game of dating. There have been so many women that I have turned down and met, that I have wanted to date since my seperation, but I am a believer in marriage, and until the divorce is finalized completely I dont believe in dating.

On a brighter note, I have been thinking about writing a book. Now what type of book should I write? Hmmm....there are so many out there...do people actually write essays still? If so I wonder where they actually publish them. this is a question that I should look into. I could possibly submit one of my essays for publishing...not sure if anyone would actually read it though.

Also, what about a topic for a book. Should I write stories at all? I have a pretty good imagination, but not sure if anyone else would find it interesting. But Im not even sure where to start writing at. How do they actually make chapters flow into one another. I wonder if I should find an author and write to them asking them for insight.

WEEK 8 ENGLISH

This week in English I had to do a classification and division draft. It took me a few days to actually put together a division draft, but I still think that it was not my best work. I have read chapter 15 about three times, with little success on figuring the division thing out. I fully understand the compare/contrast portion but division in writing. I divided up my organization and then I couldn't figure out a thesis as to why I was trying to write about my organization...go figure if its not one thing its another right. If I have to write about this in a paper, then I will have to think of a better thesis then the one I submitted this week, because that thesis will defiantly not be able to make a well written paper.

I think I need to actually talk to the instructor about this topic in particular, but I feel that it may actually be low on the scale to bug her about. But its always worth asking I guess.

WEEK EVENTS

This week has been an extrodinary week. As you have probably noticed, I have not been talking about the Obama Administration very much. The reason behind this is because I have been on a Book crave for a while. Sometimes I get in the mood to just read, and when this happens, I read a lot. Lately, I have been reading a book called, "New Tricks" by John Levitt. So far its about a practitioner of magik that is trying to place together the events of a recent loss friend. If you into magic and enjoy mysteries, then this is a pretty good book, and an easy read. Im hoping on finishing this by tomorrow, so I can start on another book. This new book will be on Vampires but I have not made up my mind on which one it will be yet.

Also, I have been painting the trim and doors around my house white, because I want to portray a crisp look throughout my home. So far, it is looking very good. I cannot wait until I replace the counters in my kitchen with Quartz. Then I will be able to relax a little on the modifications to my home.

Later this week my grandmother who I have not seeing in over a year will be finally coming to Virginia to see me. Im actually quite nervous, because she is the only relative that has actually been to my home, vice my wife and daughter of course. Not really sure what we will do, but I will think of a few places to take her. It will be a great time.

ABE LINCOLN v BARACK OBAMA

I have decided that my compare and contrast essay will be on Abe Lincoln v. Barack Obama. I will be discussing their political background, and their envision of America.

Towards the end of the current President, Barack Obama, campaign the Democratic party started to connect certain similarities between Barack Obama and Abraham Lincoln, the most legendary President in our Countries History. Due to the fact that both opposed existing Wars and alleged deliberate deception by the Presidents who started them. Lincoln opposed the Mexican-American War and Obama the Iraq War. What the Democratic Party doesn't want you to know though is that although Abraham Lincoln opposed the Mexican-American War, he was also a republican. This difference in political party alone, is a reason why Obama will not be a legendary president that the Democratic Party thought he would be.

Obama and Lincoln also have to major different visions of our they want America to be. Lincoln envisioned America as a country "conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal." Lately in all of Obama's speeches and reforms Obama wants all men to stay equal. With no gain in capital but an equal Socialist Nation. Well, if I am alive and if anyone believes in freedom and liberty, they will not stand for a Socialist Nation. During his time as President, Lincoln, suspended the writ of habeas corpus to keep the tattered union together. Obama is trying to create a civilian paramilitary force to accomplish our "national security objectives," another example of how he is turning our country in to a Socialist Nation.

Another similarity that people say they had the same amount of political competence also, however, Lincoln was a seasoned politician who served in the Illinois state legislature and the U.S. Congress for a combined 22 years before becoming President, while Obama served seven years as a State Senator and two years as a U.S. Senator before campaigning for President.

Last but not least lets focus on education. Lincoln had virtually no formal education. He did have streets smarts and a dedication to learn. In fact, he was able to practice law because the U.S. Supreme court deemed him qualified to study Constitutional Law. Obama, however, attended Columbia and Harvard.

Obviously there are only small similarities between these two people and Obama should not be placed next to our most legendary President who deserves the highest respect that our Nation has to offer. Obama a young President has a lot to learn and a lot to accomplish for our country. Do not get the idea that he will not be a good President just because of the extreme differences between him and one of the most spectacular Presidents our Nation has had. President Obama will learn to coup with our Nations issues and will by his second year in term realize that you cannot please everyone, and we will start seeing him run the Presidency the way he wants it ran vice it being the voice of his Administration.

26 and loving life

Well, since yesterday was my birthday, I feel great. I went out last night and had a great time. I wasn't actually expecting it to be as fun as it was. I haven't gone out for almost a year. At first it was a little weird being out. All of you married folk know what I'm talking about. It's just a weird feeling being out without your significant other cause you always get that weird feeling when you talk to other women. Well, I had a great time after I got a few down.

Today, I got up and started my chores around the house. All day today I've been thinking, I wish I could actually score a great job where I could wake up anytime I wanted and actually make money while I slept. I know money isn't everything, but I just wish I had enough that I never actually had to worry about it. I used to have that type of life, but then I decided to venture out on my own and join the Navy. I'm a true patriot at heart and I'm glad that I decided to protect this country.

Moving on though, my thoughts on this essay that is due wednesday, I really feel strongly about proving that president Obama I'd nothing like President Lincoln. So I will be discussing that. I'm really hoping that it doesn't spark a controversy with my fellow classmates. It's only my opinion and I hope they all take it from and educational stance.

Well, I will be doing a little freewriting tomorrow on it, I will share with you all tomorrow. Good night.

FALL/ESSAY IDEAS

Its that time of the year....FALL! This is my favorite time of the year, so many festivities going on and the weather is almost perfect. Not to mention my birthday is at the beginning of this great time, just when the leaves start fall and the air when you step out the door in the morning is crisp to the taste when you breath in. Also, my favorite holiday is in the fall, Hollows Eve. I've always had a slight pull towards the legends of beings in this world.

Well, today I did some of my English homework and I am currently trying to think of a few topics to write about in my compare and contrast essay. I have thought of a few, such as, the differences of Abe Lincoln and Barack Obama. I wanted to write about this because he was always considering himself like Abe Lincoln, when he really isn't, but I think that maybe a little to controvertible. Other things I am thinking about is the differences in nocturnal animals and daylight animals, plays v. movies, and books compared to movies and do they both really offer the same stimulation in the human brain? All of them are interesting, but I am really interested in writing about how Obama is nothing like Honest Abe and how the impacts on Society are totally different. I may just write about this and see if a few heads turn. I think its worth the risk…but we will see.