Change

Well, the start to turning my life around began. I cant believe it, I actually got through a whole day with someone that I was told didn't like me. We actually had fun, laughing, drinking, and enjoying each others company. Major points scored, if you ask me. As it turns out, we both had fun and I really enjoy her company. Go figure. Well, I have done not always good things in my life. What I mean by that is that I haven't always been truthful, mostly to my self. And that hurts no one but me. Sometimes I am a little over zealous and my ego gets big, but hey, isn't that the way a type A personality is? So far following this rigorous divorce, I have been challenged by life. I have overcome many obstacles and have probably hurt a few people in the after math of my divorce. For that I want to tell them I'm sorry. But, I am changing. I have challenged myself, to not fudge in anyway on honesty or commitment to my goals and the way I want to live my life. I'm honestly sick and tired of the way things have been going for me. There is more to my life, and I know I am meant to do something great in my life. Since I came into the Navy I have had this feeling that there is something missing, something more that I should be doing for humanity. I really feel that I must leave an impression in this world and right now, I feel that I am not even making a dent in the way things are going in this country or the world. I feel like I am stuck in Ground Hog day, every day the same thing, I wake up, go to work, come home, workout, watch TV, sleep and do the same thing, day in and day out. I'm honestly sick and tired of this. Its not my job, because honestly, really, lets face it, my job is AWESOME. I mean where else can a person jump out of planes and be at the fore front in a fight all at the same time. I love it. But I just have a feeling that my uses or my role can be apart of a much bigger picture. I'm still looking for that role that I need to fill. But for right now I have started to change my life with little things. Like Running for instance. Waking up in the morning early, right after the sun comes over the horizon and its glowing across the dew lit grass. Its so calming and elegant in its own way. BEAUTIFUL. So I am working up to actually doing that. I am putting together a list of things I want to personally accomplish prior to my 35th birthday. I know that is a while away, but lets face it, it takes time to go to those foreign countries.

Wasting time

What is up with the world today?I sometimess feel like I should have been born in a different era. Do any of you ever feel like your older then what you truely are? I feel that way all the time, and I really don't know how to explain it. It's bot like I watch movies that take place in the past either. It's just the way I am. Hmmm not even sure what I'm talking about anyway.

I guess I just needed to get that off of my chest. I requested the health care bill that is in the senate from Congressman Nye. I received a reply from him earlier today with the bill as the attachment. I have been reading through it all day today. I cannot believe how much crap is in it. Honestly, I really don't think that it will save the American people any money. Once I am finished writting a paper on it I will post my paper and the bill as an attachment for everyone to see. Also inpre of an upbeat news I am getting a tattoo. I found this awesome gothic cross with dragons intwined in it...can you say awesome? It looks very ancient..as I mentioned before I am drawn to things of this nature. I can't wait to give the tattoo artist the picture and my ideas to add into it and see what he come up with.


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Not sure

There are so many things in this world that people don't believe in. One of those things is magic. All though most people don't believe that someone can raise people from the dead, foresee the future, or even walk on water, even the Great Book, the Bible has people both good and bad doing these things. Jesus for one did all these things and more. So if it were not possible the makers son would not be able to do these things. I hope that someday I am good enough to learn these things. Now before you go all crazy on me think about it for a second. In the old days there was so much of this and although it was not shown in front of others often it was documented. But today this rarely happens. What happened
to the powers that made this happen. What happened to the gifted ones that changed the world. I wish they would come forth and hear my plea.
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Awesome day

Today was great, I actually sat around went over some of my paperwork and enjoyed redoing and rereading my essays for my English class. My portfolio will actually be complete by tomorrow, which is awesome! Well, I've been thinking about goin to see a movie tomorrow after I turn in my portfollio for grading. I'm not really sure what movie I should watch. If you have any ideas drop me a line. Tonight one of my good friends is back in town with his second wife. Huh, is it weird that whoever marries me will be known to all as my second wife also? I think it's sad when you look at it, what this world has come too in regards to divorce. My exwife and I didn't even try to work it out. It's just easier to call it quits nowdays and it makes me so mad that it is so easy. But who am I to judge right since I am apart of the statistics. But my friend is having a party at town center in an hour and I will be taking the night of relaxation off to go and have dinner and get caught up. Tis the season for family and friends, and I will definately enjoy my time with them all.


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Chillaxin

I'm sitting here, drinking a beer thinking about the world. All these electronics around me an I fins myself uninterested, thinking about how things used to be. I have always felt that I was suppose to be born in another time and ancient time. A time when thinks of folklore and alchemy where the future of sciences. Today it almost seems like there is nothing to discover on this world. Even scientists have persistently tried looking to space for answers. Oh food is ready...until later.


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Weather Day

No work today for me, I was so happy I really didn't feel like working. Actually lately, I haven't really felt like doing anything but sit around and just think about life. Things are weird right now in my life, not really sure if it's my job or personal things, but it is a little weird. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depresed or anything like that. I'm actually happy just find that I still can't sleep and have to pass out before my body will relax. I love this weather though...it's so calming for me. I could do with a little less wind though.

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I think I'm slacking on my blog entries, but I will get everything caught up tomorrow. Its veterans day tomorrow and I am glad....I really needed a day off this week to get caught up on the chores around the house and my school work...I secretly am hoping that it will be pouring outside all day tomorrow. Not sure why, but I really enjoy the rain. Perhaps I need to move to Washington where it rains all the time. Hugh....well, onto the review of the newest book I read.

Title: Glass Houses (Morganville Vampires Series #1)

Author: Rachel Caine

Review: If you are into Vampires, but not the twilight version but the version where they are mysterious creators, this book will take you in from the first few sentences. It displayed the human side of living in a town of Vampires, being afraid for your life from humans who work with the vampires. This book was really good. Although it is meant as a Young Adult book, it is still actually pretty interesting. The author has some really good twists in this story that leaves you wanting more. I'm hoping that I get the second book in this series so that I can continue to review her book's.

I am hoping that I get to download a few more books this week to read. I am almost done with Stephenie Meyer's book, The Host, so there should be a review for that book from me coming soon.

I am actually really enjoying reading lately and even though I get migraines if I read for too long, I find myself lately suffering through the pain, just to finish the book. I'm not sure if its the stories that are making me read more, or if its just the pleasure that I get from finishing another book. I know quite a few people that haven't read a book in a couple of years and I find it interesting, because their excuse is that there isn't time, but lately, I have been able to find the time to read, be it on a lunch break or just taking 20 minutes after work. I find that it calms me down and relaxes me after a long stressful day at work.

ANOTHER DAY!

I always seem to be making new essays, with whole new topics two days before an essay is due to my class. I don't under stand it. I try to stick with the essay that I chose a week prior, but it never looks or sounds good to me. Its the title of my essays that kill me. I can never seem to get them looking good so I toss the essay aside and start fresh and new. Take yesterday for example. I was reading through a Cause and Effect essay again revising it aloud, and I threw it aside and started on a new topic, because it didn't flow right. I make myself mad when I do that because I put a lot of effort and hours of my time into something, just to throw it away. But hey, if I don't like it, I don't expect others to like it. So I make an essay that I think others may enjoy.

This weekend I am planning on revising essays that I have previously submitted for grades. My English class that I am taking is an extremely great course. My instructor has actually really helped me with my writing. I am very glad that I took this course, above all my other courses. I have always struggled in my English courses because my writing has never been up to speed. I of course blame Hawaii for that. The Educational System there is not so good...another reason I am a Republican now vice a democrat. Obviously the Democratic Party with their, everyone gets equal stuff, is actually not working for the citizens of Hawaii, because as far as I remember, the public school system there, is definitely not up to speed. So I give thanks to all the Mainland schools that have stood with me.

I also received a new book from a publishing company today. Its called, The Host, by Stephenie Meyer. It should be a good book, I will be done with it by next Tuesday, so if you haven't read it, stay tuned for my review.

NOTHING SPECIAL

Just putting this out there, but has anyone heard of the Nephilum? I'm just wondering, because I'm interested in this type of Angel. Ive heard many different stories about them. If you know anything, please hit me up.

Moving on though. I cant get over how much people with the right jobs get paid in this world. I wish I knew that one person that could open up those doors, because honestly, that is all it takes, is that one person and then all your wildest dreams are open to you. But hey, this is life, and it goes on without you or not.

These past few weeks I have been so busy with work, I haven't even found time for myself. I also have a side thing going with writing description reviews about books, so in the last two weeks, publishing companies have been sending me electronic books asking me to read them and let them know what they think. This is actually interesting because they contacted me because of my Blogs on this website. Interesting right? Well, I have read two of the books they sent me. They are pretty good one book I read is called, Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick. Its an OK book, but definitely not my type the synchronization of Angels and Humans, is actually pretty interesting and that is what spawned my interest in Nephilum. What I'm about to say may not reflect to many of you, but to me when I read a book, I want to be engorged in it. I want to be able to have the words form a picture in my mind, where I can see everything from a third party standpoint.....kind of like watching a movie. When that happens, ITS A GOOD BOOK... This book, only did that at certain points, but I give it 3.5 stars. Its a great fast read. Another set of books I read that I got for FREE was yes, the Twilight Trilogy. All of the books. These, minus the love sappy love story, was actually pretty good. I'm fascinated by Vampires, so as you can probably assume, it automatically engrossed me and I could actually see everything play out as I was reading these books. I give it 4 stars...only because at points, I wanted to reach into the books and strangle Bella for her stupid about oh, I love him, or but I love this guy....I wanted to slap her a few times and tell her to get a grip. But all in all they were pretty good. This week I'll see what they send me. Hopefully they send me something else about Vampires....like I said I'm fascinated by the Supernatural.